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Reconnecting

Thursday, August 21, 2025 at 7:27 AM

Hi! It's been 2 years since I've written in here. A lot has happened... I have so much to talk about. I kind of just want something I can write in and feel like I'm speaking to someone. I finally realized my website is perfect for that. I like to just throw my thoughts out there sometimes to absolutely nobody (aka talking to myself LOL). Something I can just ramble in without anybody telling me to shut up or think I'm crazy or something. So, expect more blogs! I'm reconnecting with you guys (if anybody is reading this).

I'm not just reconnecting with you guys, the people behind the screen reading this, but I'm also reconnecting with people I knew before! This year I've reconnected with four people I've known. All four of those people I had fallen out with at some point. The first person I reconnected with, I was friends with them since 3 years ago. We had an argument last year. It was a pretty nasty argument, I will say, and I was saying the most. A couple months ago I messaged them and we talked about it. We agreed that we did not talk civilly about the topic, and we went over what happened. Now, we are pretty chill and talk basically everyday (even if it's just nonsense).

The second person I've basically reconnected with is an old best friend of mine. We used to be very close, we would hangout a lot, message eachother, call, always stick by eachother in school, and did literally everything together. All the way up until high school though. Once high school came around, we started off in the same school, but eventually they left they left the program they were in due to personal issues and went back to their home school (the school they were supposed to be at). Just to note, once they left I was basically alone. I had another friend after they left, but eventually the that friend ditched me and I never talked to that person again. So anyway, after my best friend left the school, we didn't really talk as much after that, and it was pretty sad. They made new friends and all, and I was jealous. We stopped calling and messaging as much. A couple months ago, they asked me a question about my friend (a question about a rumor) and I did not like the question. I answered in a way that was like, "why does that matter?" they did not like my response, and thought I hated them... Last month or so, I reached out and asked them how they are doing, they replied, we talked about the question incident, and caught up with eachother. Now we occasionally talk and are chill again!

The third person I've reconnected with is another old friend of mine. Me and this friend have had ups and downs over the years. Quite a few arguments and stuff... At times we got along, other times we didn't. Most of that is because of me though. A couple years ago, I wasn't really the nicest person. I used to mess with this friend, to the point they would get upset. At the time, I thought it was "funny". I would drag another person into it, and get them to mess with them too. This person would also upset my friend. There are many other times where I was causing things. We stopped being friends multiple times, for a different reason each time. I honestly forget quite a few things since that happened so often. I really reflected though on my actions and how it made them feel. A while ago (last year-ish), we semi-reconnected, but didn't talk much. A couple months ago, we kind of starting talking again and declared that we are chill, but still didn't talk much. RECENTLY, about a week ago, we are talking A LOT now. We call eachother kind of often now (something we rarely ever did before), and we are genuinely enjoying talking to eachother. We've recently done art collabs together and have just been showing off our art to eachother. Actually, a couple hours ago, we were talking about me and how I used to act (I brought it up since I still felt bad). We ended up just going back and forth on who was worse and meaner to who. They apologized to me and I did not take it. BECAUSE THEY DID NOTHING! They were trying to put the blame on themself and I was like, "dude NO!" Anyway though, I'm glad I talk to them again. I'm glad we both grew up and matured since middle school. LOL.

Now, the fourth and final person I've reconnected with so far, is yet another old friend of mine. I've known this person since elementary (the end of it anyway). We've generally had the same/similar interests, and we got along well. There's really no huge dramatic story on why we fell out, it was mainly just because they went homeschooled when high school started, and I was dealing with my own things at the time. A couple months ago I sent them a stupid picture that I thought was funny. I still think it's funny. Anyway, they replied back with "get out" and unfriended me. I was confused because I've never had beef or a problem with them. Friend 3 (the person I just talked about last paragraph), knows this person too. I asked them about why they unfriended me, and they told me that it's because they don't like me. So then I was REALLY confused. I was wondering if I had done something to make them feel like that. So... the other day I messaged them and asked about it. They replied to me and they told me that they thought I thought they were weird. In my head I was like, what! So I replied to them back and told them that wasn't the case at all. I then asked them about how they are doing, they answered and we talked back and forth for a bit. They then asked me about my art and if theres anything new they could look at. So I showed them my new art and they showed me theirs! Then we just talked and then today we talked AGAIN and sent eachother images and gifs. I was genuinely laughing at the images and gifs. They have the BEST and FUNNIEST gifs.

That's all the people I've reconnected with recently. It's nice to reconnect with people and repair a friendship. Sometimes there isn't a dramatic story on why you fall out with your friends. Sometimes it's you guys not messaging eachother and communicating! Maybe there's and issue/argument that was never resolved properly and made you guys awkward. If you've been feeling like messaging someone you used to talk to... DO IT!